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Stress can do a lot to someone. Not only have I been experiencing health problems to begin with, but the stress of moving, worrying about/helping other people close to me that are either in the hospital or have been hurt, work, money, etc etc..have really taken a toll on me. I'm missing work, I'm agitated, irritated, annoying easily, and just having been the same.

I've gone through this many times before, so it's definitely nothing new, but it's just hard to deal with especially when you do not have the time, money, or resources directly available to deal with it. So right now I guess I just have to do my best to ride things out and wait for everything to calm down.

Luckily, the family members that have been in the hospital are both doing better. Drew, who hurt his back, is doing a little better..that's going to take time. Money isn't a huge issue right now because of payday, but my health and work are still on my mind at all times. I've been having headaches for a little over a year straight. I'm talking every day from the minute I wake up to when I go to bed. I have tried giving up caffeine, fast food, soda, and other substances that may cause headaches. I have tried exercising, therapy to deal with my stress and anxiety and cutting down my hours at work. I have seen about 8 or 9 doctors, including 4 trips to the ER. I have been treated for sinus infections, allergies, and migraines. Nothing has worked. So on Sunday I have an MRI and MRA scheduled. The doctors want to rule out anuerysms, and also get a better look at my sinuses since my headaches are all frontal.

As far as work goes..I have called off 3 times due to my health. I am still an intermittent employee and this will have a great effect on whether or not a am offered a permanent position. So this has me worried. I am not sure if I should start looking for another job or not. I like my job. It has its ups and downs, but it pays well and I get the hours I need. I don't know..it's just all frustrating. And to add to it all I will have to add school to the equation.

Hopefully something gets better soon.